Miss you, Love You  / Mary Beth Ervin (Mom)
Son,
You'd be so proud of your sister.  She rededicated her life to the lord.  She's attending a Full Gospel Church in Tulsa that she loves.  When she left here the other night to attend church, she looked beautiful.  She reminds me more of you each day.  She's beautiful inside and out and so grown up.  I'm not sure how much you can see from heaven but Dee's 5'8" and about 145 lbs.  She so pretty with those big blue eyes and cleft in her chin.  She should be able to get her permit soon.  She needs it so we can make a trip to South Carolina this summer.  Please keep us all in your prayers.  Crystal's thinking about getting back together with Clarence so she might move to Tulsa.  Your Aunt Rhonda's still living in Texas.  Your Aunt Cathy and Cousin Casey are going to have a swimming pool party to celebrate Dee's 16th and Casey's 13th.  It should be an interesting party.  I know you busy with the Lord's work but I Love and can't wait to see you when the Lord calls me home.   Close

Missing You  / Roger Ervin (Father)
It won't be long son and we will be looking at the second anniversary of your leaving us, I don't think I will ever be able to adjust without you here, my mind just doesn't want to give in to the idea of letting you go, I know it's selfish on my part. Things aren't going real good at work, having problems with my hands, neck, shoulders again, I don't know whats going to happen next, but I can't keep worrying about it. I sure wish you were here to talk to about it, you always set me straight and told me to suck it up, I miss that. I won't ramble on, I do miss you greatly, I still come to the site everyday, I don't go to your grave as much as I did, I know I need to do better. As I always say save OL DAD a place, can't wait to see your smilin face again. Close

Not A Day Goes By.........  / DeeAnna (Jd's Little Sister )
I have been hurt, and I have hurt but most of all I carry pain because I brought it onto myself. I know its not always going to be easy for me but I know that I need to let things go and stop holding them on my shoulders. Its fixing to be and a couple of months my brother’s anniversary of his wreck and I’m dreading it, I don’t know what to do or what to think. I want to be there for my parents, but I don’t have the courage to be there for myself. I can’t help the fact that I’m not perfect  no one is. I know that my family needs me but something inside me just tells me to run away cause I know if I keep holding this all in something inside me is going to bust! I don’t want that to happen. God knows my problems that I face, and the hurdles I have to jump to get there. 


What I really need is my brother back after all this time I thought he would never leave, but what I miss most is the way he would make everybody laugh and the way he smiled. I want to be exactly like him, or how I remember him. I got a picture, memory in my heart and I wrap it close around me when I’m sad or down, Not a day goes by that I don’t think of you. I don’t know what the future holds or what will happen to me eventually, but I do know that one day I will get to see your beautiful smile again.

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Missing You  / Roger Ervin (Father)
It continues to bless me everytime I read how you have impacted someones life son, so many people continue to be touched by you just as you touched our lives here on earth. Not a day goes by that I don't think of you, sometimes it's minutes, I continually think what if, where you'd be now, how you would be doing in college, so many questions run through my mind and it always comes back to the same thing, God's plan, I have to keep in mind that this isn't my plan it's his, when I look at the overall picture it makes sense, it's just me being selfish and wanting you here with us. OL DAD feels like a part of me has been taken that I can't or won't ever get back and even though it has been almost two years the pain is still so great I don't know if it will ever subside. The one thing I do know most of all is I miss you, everyday, every hour, every minute, but I will keep on keeping on until it's my turn and God calls me home and I get to see that smiling face and see Dad and Grandpa and Grandma and all the others that have gone on before me. As I always say save OL DAD a place. Close

God's love and leading  / Mary Beth Ervin (Mom)
When I was 20 and had just finished Rhema Bible Training Center in Tulsa, Oklahoma, I went to Kenneth Hagin's campmeeting.  While there the Lord impressed me to go to Lester Sumrall's table.  He also impressed me to buy a set of tapes on "Overcoming Grief."  The Lord told me that I would need these tapes later in my life so I bought them.  After JD went on to be with the Lord, the Lord reminded me about these tapes.  I dug them out and started listening to these tapes which have been a great souce of comfort to me.  It made me realize that God knew when I was 20 that I would marry Roger and we'd have Keith, JD and DeeAnna.  God also knew that JD would go home to be with the Lord on May 6, 2005.  You can't imagine the peace that God placed in my heart and the burdon that was lifted from my shoulder when I understood that God was always in control of our lives and it was his will that JD go home when he did.  It wasn't any one's fault that JD passed away, it was just his time and God has important things for JD to be accomplishing in heaven.  As a parent when something happens to your child, you always feel responsible no matter what the circumstances.  Just knowing that God knew so long ago has released me from the guilt I felt for not being able to protect my son in his time of need.  Thank the Lord for his omnipotence, grace and mercy.  I love you Lord and I'll worship you forever. Close

Missing You  / Roger Ervin (Father)
Ol DAD is missing you tremendously right now son I know at some point that maybe I will come to terms with your leaving us, but right now I'm struggling, it seems so unfair, I would have gladly taken your place so you and Sam could have enjoyed the fullness of life together, but that wasn't Gods plan. The days and nights have gone by far quicker than they seemed to and we are coming up on what will soon be two years since you left us, but for me it's as real today as it was then. I love and miss you more than words can say, you would be so proud of your sis shes going to be such a fine young woman. As I always say save OL DAD a spot, I'll see ya when my time is due and God calls me home. Close

If you need to talk to a parent of a lost love one, I'm here for you.  / Mary Beth Ervin (Mom)
For any mothers or fathers wo need some one to talk to about the loss of a loved one, feel free to send me an email. Close

Caring, Sharing, Prayers and Stories  / Mary Beth Ervin (Mom)
Lord, please tell Jeremy the following.  I spoke with Sam recently and asked her what the quote was that you and her used to say to each other just before you parted.  Sam said you'd touch each others hearts and say " Even when we'll be apart, its okay, because I'm still right here.  How prophetic those words came to be.  I also remember you saying " I love you always and forever in my heart."  I was in a jewelry store just before Christmas and found a  heart locked that said on the front of it "Forever in my Heart."  I'd like to get ID bracelets made up with the first saying and needle point the other onto a pillow.  Oh by the way I met your Physical Therapist today named Travis.  He was a very nice gentleman.  He came to the church benefit and also to the funeral service.  He said you definitely were a stout young man and your right arm was doing great.  I was so glad he remembered you.  He also gave me a wonderful complement.  He said when i sang "Holy Ground" that I had one of the prettiest voices he's ever heard.  That was so sweet for him to remember.  It doesn't seem possible you'll be gone two years on coming May 6.  Please continue to pray for our family and get Jesus's ear when necessary about certain family members who are having a rough time not only mentally, spiritually but also financially.  Also, I we got a Christmas note from Brittany Bryant, Chris Embry and Samantha Green all wishing us a merry chistmas and missing you.  Please ask the Lord to bless us financially where we can sell our place.  Its become almost unbearable to walk past your room every day.  There are also contstant reminders of you at school and comparisons made between you and DeeAnna.  It will take a miracle for this to happen but I knew that Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today and forever.   All the teenagers in the wreck suffered enough.  They need to continue their schooling and concentrate on the future.  I don't know if I ever got to tell you but we got college paperwork from OU, OSU, Nebraska, Michigan, Tulsa University and  Ohio State.  Well I know your busy with the Lord's work.  Ask Grandpa Green to teach you to play the harmonica, keyboard and guitar.  Also Grandma Dorothy's mom could tear the ivory keys off a piano, I'm sure she'd help you too.  Please give all our loved ones a big hug and kiss from us.  I don't think it will be too much longer before you'll get to see your grandma Ervin.  She misses Grandpa Ervin and you so much.    I also hope you can see your nephew and nieces from up there.  Logan has big blue eyes and he's already almost 5 ft tall and he's only 7.  Keirstie and keira are both blue eyed blond hair beauties.  Keith's gonna neeed a big stick as those girls get older.  Also your sister gets prettier every day inside and out.  She has the biggest blue eyes, cleft in her chin, grin marks, freckles are lightening all up, and she's between 5'7" and 5'8".  Roger and I hope she gets a litlle taller.  Please keep praying for your daddy to get back in church.  I need in him there with me so badly.  I've started working on the Jeremy Dean Memorial Foundation to provide scholarships to young college bound seniors and eventually we'd like to assist family who need assistance like we did when you were in the hospital.  We'd like to sponsor then a camper at no expense, fully stocked, expecially for those family who live far away from the hospital.  We'd like to include all the pastors on Tulsa on the Board so we can start a prayer chain at every church when a crisis call comes in and make sure there are prayer warriors praying around the clock.  Oh during Softball Sam's picture was in the paper several times.  I knew how proud you would have been and still bragging, I'm sure.  As always son I love you, miss you, would love a hug from you, and I am so proud that you unselfishly saved Sam's life.  Your my hero.  And as your friend Josh Clark puts it, he has a superman tattoo with your initiails inside it..  Also Bobby Bryan has a cross tattoo on his right arm with your initial "JDE" above the cross.  Both your dad and brother want to get  one too.  Hopefully, if through the rapture or by the way of the grave, we'll all get to see you soon.  Love your Mom.  I sure miss your bear hugs. Close

Missing You  / Roger Ervin (Father)
I come by your site everyday son sometimes several times a day it just seems so wrong for you not to be here with us. Your newest neice will be two years old before long and sadly that means that you will also be gone for two years, I don't know where time is going it seems like yesterday that we had to say goodbye. Ol DAD misses you so bad son I just wish that I could rewind time and have you back, for your sister, for your mother and most of all for me, I know it's selfish of me to think that way please forgive me. As I always say save OL DAD a place, your always on my mind. Close

Christmas Time Update  / Beth Ervin (Mom)
Dear Lord, please tell JD the following:  I placed a new shepard's hook with a charm with hearts.  It favors the one Sam had gotten you.  I also created a christmas decoration with a football as the centerpiece surrounded by flowers and beads.  It looks beautiful on your grave.  It was my present to you, something I made with my hands, from ideas flowing from inside my heart.  I hope you enjoy it as you look down from heaven.  I also saw something while I was christmas shopping that made me think of you and samantha.  A heart locket inscribed "Always Forever in my Heart."  You and Same would touch each others hearts and say "Love you always and forever in my heart."  I know if you were here you would get it for same.  When I can afford too, I'm going to buy it and wear it for you with her in mind.  I love you son always and miss you daily.  I am conforted to know that your in heaven.  Especially since the scriptures say "there are no tears in heaven, no sorrow given, all will be glory in that day."  I know your busy doing the lord's work and singing the songs of salvations because angels cannot sing the songs of salvation, only the redeemed can sing the songs of salvation.  I'm glad your at peace, filled with joy, and busy fulfilling God's will for your life in heaven.  Since God inhabits the praises of his people, I hope you can hear me singing during praise and worship since your in God's presense all the time now.  God bless son and save me a spot up there too but not before I've completed the work I need to do down here.  Please keep praying for all your friends and family.  We all love and miss you.  Love Always Mom. Close

Holiday wishes  / DeeAnna Ervin (Sister)
Hey bubba how you been up there well i miss you down here..........things are goin ok i guess i know u can see all of it from up there so i don't have to tell you, but can i ask you something brother to sister. Bubba why did we have to have the relantionship like we did i regret everyday cuz life would of been so much better if i wasn't there and i jus wish it could of been me instead of you. I love you more than my heart can describe, and i miss you more than the world would ever know. Save me a place in your arms when i get there love 
 

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Holiday Wishes  / Michael &. Melody Fitzgerald (Another Family Of An Angel )
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I miss you  / Chris Embrey (Friend)
JD, I have lost count of the days I have thought about you, I dont remember when there was a night when I havent dreamed of you and all of our great times we had together. I still get chills. I miss you so much man. I still hear your laugh sometimes and its hard to believe that im not the one making you laugh anymore.  Always remember that I will NEVER forget about you, But I needed some time to try to forget all the bad. I think I am to that stage to where I feel comfortable talking to you without getting upset. So im gonna check in on you from time to time now. So I'll talk to you soon man. Everyday I look forward to seeing you again, and when I do we'll break out the pig skin and play. I love you, and i'll be thinking about you. Take it easy "pimpdaddy69" Close

Son, my kindred spirit  / Beth Ervin (Mother)
I was born the youngest of three girls and have a younger.  From the start I was a daddy's girl.  My dad would get up every morning singing, smiling and lovingly care for all of us.  Even when he was in the hospital which was many times, he always had witty comments to make and could make us smile even on his sickest days.  I had a kindred spirit with my dad and loved his optimistic spirit.  My mother was always a pessimist and for me my favorite critic when I'd learn a new song.  I could trust her to be honest to tell me if I sang it okay and it blessed me that she wouldn't lie to me just to be nice.  She always told me the truth.  I'm thankful for her part of my life and am glad she's still here with me.  I lost my dad in 2003, it was a very painful time for me but what helped me through it was my son.  I had that same kindred spirit with him as I had with my father.  I knew as long as JD was alive that I had a part of my father with me.  Then when JD passed away in 2005, I've felt lost.  I've never had to be without a kindred spirit in my life and for me it always was a male family member.  Its something God puts between you and someone else that is a spiritual link to another person here on earth.  My dad always knew when I was having a hard time and would call just at the right time and it was the same for me for him.  My dad and my son were my heros.  Now that they're both gone, I've been at a loss on how to spiritually feel whole again.  I've prayed, cried, confessed, testified, quoted scripture and waited on the Lord.  Even with the love from church, family and friends, its been very hard for me.  I am so proud of my son for unselfishly saving his girlfriend's life and for fighting such a fight to stay but there was so much damage to his body, I believe he got a glimpse of glory and went on to be with the Lord.  He's up there with my grandparents, his grandpa Ervin, his uncle Ronnie and others and I know he's having a blast in heaven getting things ready for those of us yet to join them.  JD, mama misses you so much.  I've told me 77 year old mother that if she gets there before I do to give you the biggest hug from us.  Each day is painful in ways but I know that the Lord will make a way for me some how because he is the way maker.  God knows how to fix my heart and spirit.  The Lord showed me a scripture to help me.  Ezekiel 37:11 which the last part says:  Our bones are dried, and our hope is lost: we are cut off from our parts.  This scripture describes how I've felt completely.  My heart and spirit feel broken, and without my kindred friend, I feel lost, and I feel cut off from my parts because my family is fractured forever from the loss of my son.  So then the Lord told me to look at Ezekiel 37:4 - 10.  God told me to prophesy to my bones and ask for new breathe to enter into me and I shall live and God will renew my flesh, and then prophesy for new breathe to enter into my flesh that I may live.  I've started obeying these scriptures and God is healing my broken heart, and my broken spirit, and my body.  Its in his timing but it is happening.  I know JD wants me to be happy and he's up there praying for me.  Its been hard but I am making progress.  The bible also so says "A merry heart doeth good like a medicine but a broken spirit drieth the bones."  I want the merry heart, the joy, the strength, the peace and the wisdom to know what other steps I need to make on this journey and how I can help others who are walking in the same path.  I hope this helps someone especially another mother out there.  Don't let your loss cause you to loose your faith in the Lord.  We are to come boldy before the throne of grace in time of help and need.  We should run to the Lord, not from him, and know that some things are between that person who passed and the Lord.  We may not know the reason why until we get to heaven some day. Close

Missing You  / Roger Ervin (Father)
I'm not sure where life is taking us next son, there seems to be an unfillable hole in my heart, I know God will mend us with time, but I will never understand. Your sister quit basketball I hate it that she didn't feel she had the stuff to make it, the new coach is probably the biggest part of her problems, but she has to want to do it. There are so many things I would love to talk to you about, your nephew and your nieces they are growing up so fast. I'm not going to ramble on son, as always save OL DAD a place and I will see u in Gods time. Close

Missing You  / Roger Ervin (Father)
I had another tough day son, just being in the woods gives me a lot of time to think, and it usually is mostly about you, the good times, the fun while we hunted, the trouble you got yourself into and how you handled it afterwards. Thats why I'm so proud of you, you were becoming a fine young  man, I couldn't have asked God to give me a better son. I know we will find out when we get to heaven why you had to leave us so soon, but for now it only leaves a hole in my heart that just can't seem to be filled. I'm trying to be strong for your mom and sister, but I don't think I'm doing a great job son, inside I'm a mess. I'm not angry with God I guess we are at a stalemate, I won't ask why and he's not going to tell me either way. Life goes on for us, can't wait to see your smiling face and get a big ol hug, as I always say save Ol DAD a place. Close

Missing him!  / Rhonda Smith (Samantha's Mom )
Just got back from Softball State tournament and was disappointed with not advancing but was proud of Sam.  I felt JD's presence so strong.  I found a penny in the parking lot on the way into the ballgame and gave it to Sam.  The all-knowing smile she gave me was priceless.  She too later found a penny.  She smacked one out of the big park - first pitch - outtta here!!!!!!!  She was 3 for 4 and pointing to heaven and thankful for each one.  Our family has a deep hole.  We go on but never forgetting you JD.  Thank you for everything and it was an honor to get to know such a wonderful boy who totally loved my little girl and she with you.  I MISS YOU!!! Close

Its hard hard without you bubba  / DeeAnna Ervin (Jd's little sis )

Yesterday was the hardest part of my life to sit there and listen to someone else's name that was basically yours be called and having to keep myself from braking down. I catch myself sometimes looking out on our football feild and trying to find you, but your jus not there only in my dreams. I keep hoping someday i will find true love like you did but so far it all just been heartbraking for me i just can't seem to find one. I miss the times we had together the laughs we shared the talks we had, but most of all i miss YOU. I hope heaven is what you wanted and well dad is trying is hardest to be strong for me and mom but sometimes i think i can't be strong for them......dad talked bout you to me yesterday forr the first time and i could barely hold back the pain. But jeremy dean i lov you so so much and i miss you more than i could anyone else i lov you very much bye bubba hope to see you one day.

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Missing You  / Roger Ervin (Father)
Every day that goes by son seems so wrong without you in it, deer season has started again and all I could think about the other day in the stand was the good times, the laughs, the bright moments during our many trips afield, I know your watching over us. I miss you now more than ever, I don't know that it will ever change, I hope that someday the pain of your leaving us will diminish, but you will be forever remembered that will never change. I don't go to the gravesite like I did I had to stop myself from spending so much time there I know you wouldn't want me to be upset and crying all the time, I'm doing my best to be strong for your sister and mother, but I don't know if I'm doing that great. I love and miss you son and I will see you again in Gods time, love OL DAD Close

Happy 19th Birthday on September 19 in Heaven  / Beth Ervin (Mom)
Son,
I asked to Lord to tell you "Happy Birthday" from all your family and friends.  We sure miss you and love you.  I know that things are supposed to get better with time but we all still miss you dreadfully and ache to too your smile, hear your voice, and receive one of your wonderful hugs.  I've had to get alot of help from the Lord during the last year and a half since you passed away.  Each day is hard without your loving face, smile, humor and hugs.  I've been so dispaired on three different occasions that I made bad decisions that could have cost me my life.  Fortunately the Lord saw through my pain and protected me.  I am so ashamed of my lack of faith during this times.  I pray for other mothers and ask the lord to surround them with spirit filled friends who will stick close to them no matter how long it takes god to heal a mother's broken heart and for the mother to be revived and her broken spirit renewed  overflowing with the love of God and the balm of gilead.  I want to be a blessing to my family and others again and not just taking the steps each day still numb inside from the tragedy that has changed our family forever.  God, please renew our faith, our strength and our will to continue until the day or your return.  Retore our joy, set us free from a broken spirit and depression.  Set our feet a dancing and our hearts rejoicing because the joy of the lord is our strength.  Let our strength be renewed like the eagles.  Let the devil be afaild of us again when we enter in to a room as fired up women of God.  In Jesus Name. Close