Happy Birthday in Heaven  / Roger Ervin (Father)
Happy Birthday son time has traveled by so fast it's so hard to believe how fast it's gone I think about you everyday I know your having a bang up of a party up there with your mother as I always tell you save OL DAD a place I love you. Close

Happy Birthday  / Sam Lorton
You are forever and always my angel. I'm sure the birthday party in heaven is as amazing as they come. I love you forever. Close

Its that time of year again  / Roger Ervin (Father)
The time has gone by so fast son it's that time of year again football season has kicked in all the memories of watching you play spending saturday afternoons watching college football together I miss those times but I know your in much better hands down I also know that your mother and yourself have hopefully caught up on time lost. Deer season is coming around again in a couple of weeks it's during that time that I miss you the most you were such a good friend hunting partner son and confidant I miss all those things but the things you done here on earth in your short time far outweigh any of those things it's only my selfishness that would love for you to be here but I know God had other plans and I understand that. I love you and miss you terribly I think about you everyday I don't think theres a day that goes by I don't think about you OU's started out rough this year I know you will be watching their progress as I always tell you son save OL DAD a place I will be seeing you when my number rolls up. Close

Its Been Awhile  / DeeAnna Ervin (Sister)
Its been awhile since i've been on your site my heart is just taking its time on closing the wounds that have been opened wider. I know in my heart there's nothing i can do or say that will bring you or momma back but sometimes i wish there was. I get so mad at myself cause I know I could have been with her that night or i could have at least answered my phone when she needed me but i was to stubbard to know anything that was best for me and cause of my stubberiness i let an idiot hurt my mother and I lost her because of it. I spend everyday of my life now wondering what could of been or what would have been. She had promised me so many things and its kills me to know that i won't have her here to talk too to have her in the delivery room watching be give birth or just having her laugh or smile so i know everything will be alright. I just don't understand things that have been set in my life and been tookin away from there's just so many things that run through my head each day wondering who's going to be next and why them. I can't tell you i miss you cause your not here I can't tell you i need you cause your up there I can't tell you i'm sorry cause its to late to tell I can't tell you i'm happy cause your not in my arms I can't tell you i love you cause i lost my love when you left and I can't tell you i wish you was here cause your already to far gone. Days just go by week by week month by month year by year and i'm still crying for ya'll each and every day. Its hard to watch home videos and see your face wishing i could just ramp my arms around you and tell you i'm sorry for letting you go. It's hard being in a relationship and trying to love another hoping you don't lose them too but whats even harder is going through each and everyday without having ya'll here. I can't stand it that i can see dad's life going much better and mine just keeps going down hill. I fill so warn out so drained so much like a failure to him cause i can't live up to his expectations of what he wants in a daughter. I feel like i tried so hard to make him smile like bubba did or like momma made him laugh but i can't do it. Sometime's i wish maybe things would have gone a different way and i wouldn't be here having to pick up the pieces of my your life's and making them a memory. It was hard enough having to make all the arrangments for momma's funeral and honestly i didn't think it would be as hard as it was to see her in a tomb but O God it was alot harder than i thought i really wanted to just fall to the floor and wade away from eternity just rot my life away in that very floor above where she laid but i knew she would have never wanted me to do that and she would have wanted me to make the best of my life just like she did. So now i'm trying to do my best and i just keep getting hit with nails in the back. Can't find my fiance a job can't make dad happy can't stop grieving can't help but get pregnant and feel like dad hates me cause i didn't do what he thought was better. I feel like i have let my father down my fiance down ya'll down and even myself down. I just wish i had you or momma here to just help me out but before i go just do one thing tell momma i love her very much and miss her more than ever and can't wait to see her again and to you bubba i love you very much and miss you every single day hope seeing momma was a beautiful day in heaven for you! Love you Close

Son / Roger Ervin (Father)
I did something this year I haven't done since your loss Son and that was take time off work and just leave the state, I had to get away for awhile, the timing of your mothers death along with yours was just too much this year I had to just get away. The things that happen in life can't be changed, I've learned that and I've handled everything thats been thrown at me these last four years and I haven't dodged any of it, but I just had to have a break if but for a short time. I know your watching down on me everywhere I go, I went and spent time with your sister and just done some sightseeing and just got away, it done me good. I love you and miss you more than words can say, as I always tell you save OL DAD a place. Close

Four Years Today  / Roger Ervin (Father)
It was this day four years ago that my life was forever changed, not only did I lose you, but I lost so much more. We will never know son why things happen the way they do, but I'm strengthened by Gods saving grace that keeps me and sustains me literally, it's in that knowing that I will get to see you and your mother and all the others that have gone before you that sustains me. There is not a minute of anyday, not an hour passes that I don't think of the memories, those are something that warm my heart; we had so many and I thank God for every one them. I will keep my eyes on the eastern sky, my heart right before God so that my door key is kept on the hook so when my roll is called I too will enter that wonderous play that we can only pray and hope to see. As I always say son, save OL DAD a place, I love you and miss you in the worst way, but I know you can hear me. Close

Thinking of you  / Roger Ervin (Father)
The day is almost here son, it's hard to believe that it's been almost four years since you left us, the next few days will be hard on me, much harder on me than years past due to your mothers leaving, but I know that Gods got it all under control, that I know without a doubt. As the day comes and goes and I think about you and your mother, God will provide with the strength that I need to make it through the days as he always does, as I always tell you son save OL DAD a place, Close

Your Mother  / Roger Ervin (Father)
Well Son I know you were happy to see your Mother and I know she was happy to see you, but it doesn't help those of us here that have to deal with the leaving; I don't think I will ever understand why things happen the way they do, but it's not for me to understand only to believe and have faith that God knows all and sees all and thats something I will never doubt. I will be adding a site for your Mother in the near future so that the many lives that she touched can have a place to light candles for her just as they do you. I know you were probably wondering just as your grandfathers why she arrived this early, but only God himself can answer that question, your Mother was a good woman, a woman of such great integrity, I will always hold her in the highest regards, she was and always has been the greatest thing God brought into my life, I don't think either of us thought things would go the way they did, but the road traveled took a detour for the two of us and your sister. You and your Mother keep a close watch on your Sister I know you do she always talks about it, well now she has two gaurdian angels to watch over and keep her, as I always tell you Son Save OL DAD a place, when my number rolls up and I get there we can all catch up on whats been missed. Close

Memories / Roger Ervin (Father)
I don't think it could be said better than your mother said it son, each time I have a memory it transports me back to the exact moment that memory was captured, those are mine to keep, no one can take those away from me. We all have our allotted time here on this earth; only God himself knows what that timeline is, I thank him for allowing your mother and I to have had you if only for a short time, someday I will get to ask God himself maybe why your stay was shorter, he may or may not give me an answer, but one thing is for certain that he gave us you and the lives you touched will never be forgotten and the blessing you became to us is more evident with every memory revisited. I'm very proud of your sister shes turning into a beautiful young woman, your brother is such a good man, father, friend and confidant just like you son, I know you would have been a wonderful father it just wasn't going to be; only God himself knows the answers to all of that. Ol DAD is doing a lot better, I've been through so much since you left, and sometimes it tough, but I keep putting one foot in front of the other knowing that when it's my time and my rolls called I will join you and get to see your smiling face again, as I always tell you son; save OL DAD a place up there, I love you Close

Etched Memories  / Beth Ervin (Mom)
Jeremy Dean "J.D.",

Each photograph is a glimpse of a moment forever etched into my mind and when viewed transports me back to a particular moment awakening my heart reviving emotions hidden deep within me. Emotions of joy remembering when I had you here with me and emotions of pain remembering now that your not here with me. Complex emotions battling one against the other causing tears to flood down my cheeks and soon your photograph I must put away. The power of love can exalt a person to the mountain peaks and can also bring a person down low to their knees. My bible says God is love and God's love never fails so I believe that God's love for me will not let me fail as I live my life without you son. I know that in heaven there is no time, no beginning, no end, its forever now the present. So son while your busy in eternity whenever thoughts of me cross your mind please look towards Jesus and tell him to just smile my way today. I love you son. Your always in my heart.

Love Mom
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Missing You  / Roger Ervin (Father)
I can't tell you how bad I'm missing you right now, it's just one of those days, I'd give anything if you were here to talk to, I know you can hear me, but it's just not the same, you had that rare quality to listen when I needed it and tell the straight of it. I just put another picture up on the site that a photographer gave me from homecoming 04, it is one of the best pics of you yet on the field, it just rips my heart out to look at and realize that your no longer with us. Keep me in your prayers son it's been a real tough time for me, I know there is a reason for me to be here, but I wish I only knew why I'm having to deal with so much hurt and pain maybe someday I will understand, save OL DAD a place. Close

I need you more than ever  / DeeAnna Ervin (lil sis )
I can't believe its been almost 5 yrs since you past. Sometime's i lay in bed wondering what it would have been like if you was still here. I wish you could me my boyfriend he's amazing to me and you would really like him. We have our up's and down's but i still love him. Mom needs you like crazy she's been having a rough time this christmas, most of us are. I think about you 24/7 there's not a day that goes by that i don't think of you. I miss you more than anything in this world. I love you so much bubba! Don't ever stop watching over me Close

I need you more than ever  / DeeAnna Ervin (lil sis )
I can't believe its been almost 5 yrs since you past. Sometime's i lay in bed wondering what it would have been like if you was still here. I wish you could me my boyfriend he's amazing to me and you would really like him. We have our up's and down's but i still love him. Mom needs you like crazy she's been having a rough time this christmas, most of us are. I think about you 24/7 there's not a day that goes by that i don't think of you. I miss you more than anything in this world. I love you so much bubba! Don't ever stop watching over me Close

Missing you  / Roger Ervin (Father)
Keep OL DAD in your prayers son, I'm going through a real tough time right now one of the toughest I've dealt with since your loss, I know I will make it through, but everyday is a struggle to keep my mind where it should be and not allow the enemy to sneak in and talk me into something I know is wrong. I miss you in the worst way right now, I could have talked to you about this, I have no one else to talk to, I'm back on my own again for now, not sure what God has planned for the future just going to have to take it a day at a time, one things for certain I miss you so terribly bad it still seems like a bad dream I wish I could wake up from. Your on my mind everyday, from daylight to dark, I love and miss you and I will see you when my number comes up, until then save OL DAD a place. Close

Missing You  / Roger Ervin (Father)
It's always hard on me this time of year son with the timing of your birthday and then deer season rolling around I always find it hard to reason why your not here, but I have to keep reminding myself that there is a grander plan that I'm not in control of and I know and keep reminding myself that when my number rolls up I will get to see you again. I hunted for the first time this year and it still seems so empty not getting to share the laughs and fun we had for so many years, I thank God that he allowed me to have those memories for no one can take those away from me, you will always be in my heart and I miss you now as much as I ever have I know you will be smiling down on me everytime I crawl into a tree stand for it's during those times that I can relive all those precious memories that we made, as I always say save OL DAD a place I will be seeing when it's my time. Close

Happy 21st Birthday Son in Heaven  / Beth Greene (Mom)

Son,

You'd be at College now probably playing football as an OU Sooner and I know you'd be so much more handsome.  I'd love to see how much you've changed.  I know I'll see you when the Lord takes me home but until that time, you'll always be in my heart forever.  I love you son and I'm thankful to know that your happy and at peace in heaven. 

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JD / Stacie Breed (Sam's (JD's gf) college roommate )
JD, I am Sam's college roommate and just wanted to say how much I wish I could have gotten to meet you and see how amazing you were. Sam has told me yall's story and recently showed me this site and I want you to know that I am looking out for her just as much as I know you look down on her and protect her like you did here. You saved her, you were her first love, you made her the person she is today who is an amazing friend, an amazing daughter, and an amazing person in general! i wish so badly that i could have met you JD but i did meet your son JJ who is pretty darn cute :) we both wish he could live with us in our tiny dorm room! i can't wait to meet you someday and be able to witness you and sam together again because i know that in heaven when yall are reunited there will be no tearing yall apart! i promise i will do my part as her roommate to look after her and take care of her just as you would be doing! ~Stacie Close

hey bub  / Alisa Escoe (like family )

hey JD how is it up there with the man..i hope your having fun. Well i havnt got on here in a while so i thought i would..Your sister moved to south carolina i miss her like crazy. i dont rlly c your dad around anymore..But we all miss you bub i wish everything could just go back the way it was you were to young and i know it was ur time to go but i miss the old days when i used to come over to aunt judys and always c you there wit justin as soon as i walked in the door..you and justin were always playing video games..lol and when you guys would play basketbll in the heat of the day..or you guys were always hunting..You and justin and your dad would always come back and tell us every little detail bout you guys hunting day..i knwo me and you never talked but i knew were there and you were like family to me..well amy is getting married to an amazing guy i thought she would never het married.We all wish you were here to meet him..lol exspecially amy the one everyone thought would never get married..just and jennifer r not together anymore but they act like they are..well i cant wait to c you in heaven!!

WE ALL MISS YOU SO MUCH!!!

love alisa rae!!

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i lov u  / DeeAnna Ervin (Sister)
Bubba its been awhile since i've been on your site i guess i jus couldn't bring myself to get on it like i know i should of. I miss you like crazy though i think bout you everday, i had so much fun in Oklahoma i wish you could of been there to share it with me! I finally built up enough courage to see your grave and it looked beautiful everythin was exactly how it was before AMazing! i love you more than life itself bubba jus thought i'd tell you that can wait to be with you one day so we can have some bro. sisterly love kisses and hugs always!

Love Your Lil Sister

DeeAnna
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Samantha's Graduation Inspired This Poem  / Beth Ervin (Mom)
To: Samantha
From: JD (as given to his mom during prayer and intercession)

I was up here watching as you walked across the stage
So elegant, so lovely, so beautifully full of grace
I watched as you shook hands and your diploma you embraced
Proud and excited over the accomplishments you’d made
Our love is eternal, and breaches barriers , time and space
Nothing can ever stop it, or its memory erase
It rises up within you, with every breath that you take
Supporting and uplifting you, all along life’s way
The love that we have is profoundly in depth
As constant as the heart beat, thumping in your chest
For the gift that we were given, we are truly blessed
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